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Monday, June 09, 2003

Mon, 09 Jun 2003 12:14:10 GMT

i miss my ReyJey sooooooooo much!!! he slept over on saturday and sunday, and i went with him to the city today [monday].. we took a couple of photos, and we ate.. he's such a cutie.. you should have been there to watch him eat^^.. so damn cute!! eek!! i just wanna eat him up.. soo NYuMeee and adorable! i love playing with him.. he's soo childish *ahem.. very shilly indeed..

saying goodbye was soo hard when i was about to hop onto my train.. i couldnt let go of him, i couldnt stop kissing him.. i didnt care if there were soo many people around, and usually i do, but having to part from him for the day is soo DAMN HARD!!.. he makes me feel soo warm, loved and sooo special.. holding him in my arms felt soo good.. being held by him felt even more wonderful.. i dunno what i'd be doing if he wasnt in my life.. probably living a life of a no-life.. hehe.. i love my baby soo much!! and i miss him dearly..

you take care babe.. i love you.. God Bless always and be a good boy like you promised me.. dont cross the crossing without that little green man telling you to walk.. dont look at girls boobies or butts.. i know i dont have much of either, but you know how jealous i get.. if you do look at other girls butts and boobies, please dont let me know.. but i'd prefer you be honest with me at all times.. anywais, thanks ReyJey.. for everything..

-yours always, Leah

Thursday, June 05, 2003

Thu, 05 Jun 2003 09:58:27 GMT

howdee mr xanga page^^. i've missed you!! havent blogged nothing for ages.. its cos of all the tests and assignments we've been having.. promise.

I CANT WAIT TILL THE WEEKEND!!! saturday me and my friends are going ice skating.. then on sunday, its the movie marathon.. and then monday its a public holiday and dunno what i'd be doing then.. and on tuesday, we have no subjects, cos we have a school mass. God is GOOD!!

ohh.. i almost forgot to mention.. yesterday. or was it yesterday? eeeeh.. i forget. anywais, we had a retreat for our form not long ago.. :D it was really good.. we got to reflect, and realise soo many good things in our lives in comparison to those that arent so fortunate.. and we cried.. my whole group got emotional during a reflection.. we just bawled out crying, hugging each other saying we love one another.. i couldnt stop crying.. as much as i tried, i couldnt. i love them soo much. dunno what i'd do without them.. "I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!"

anywais, i think ill end it at this.. buhbai ppl.. you all have a safe week.. love you all, take care and God bless..

-Leah

Thursday, May 08, 2003

Thu, 08 May 2003 12:44:06 GMT

heya, well.. i had an interesting day today.. me and chanel got into a bit of a moody mood.. its kind of sad really when i think about it.. like the sickening sad.. not the upseting sad.. hehe.. silly.. it was my fault for acting in such a way anywais.. he emailed me a poem saying sorry.. i replied and he replied back.. i included it here.. enjoy.. =) dont hurt yourself laughing...
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Dear Leah,
I know your angry at me, and that is fine
i know you think im selfish and unkind
But please know this and plz believe
that i am sorry baby its not you, its me
im to shy to come near you or make contact
cause i do like you alot and thats a fact
Im sorry for dogging you, im well aware
wat i done was wrong, but i still care
alot bout you, i know your mad
cause wat i did ,made you sad
and all i ask of you is to plz forgive me
cus, my heart is in pain, but you cant see
how much i feel 4 you, is so great
and wat a mistake i have made, and now i must wait
to witness the love and care of the gal i admire
i know i am nothing to you now, juz a lier
but i do like you very much
and i write this poem from the bottom of my heart.Love alwayz : KizKAde o7 : Chanel

Chanel,
your an excellent poet, i can see.
so lets see the best, i can make myself be.
hmm here it goes with my rhyming act,
im not any good, but try to follow my track..

i forgive you, for all you have said,
yet you have done none, so there no hearts to mend.
i was just a sulk, you know how i am,
i only wanted company, with you as my best friend.

we've barely talked, from person to person,
we take advantage of our time, and we'll soon realise its gone.
i've known you for awhile now, and we've gotten real close,
im just frightened that we'll grow apart, now thats a great loss..

i've realised you ignore me, and it hurts to see,
that you speak to someone else and not to me.
a simple hi, and a kiss goodbye,
would make my day oh so worthwhile..

you've told me once, twice, maybe three times,
that your too 'shy', not to imply that it be a crime.
JUST a little effort do i want from you,
to make me believe that what you say is true..

that is all from me now, i must go.
a pathetic attempt in poetry, hehe i know.
so cheer up hun, im all right,
sweet dreams to you, God bless and good night.. =)

Leah^^..

Dear LEAH,
thankyou 4 your forgiveness, now im all good
i can go now and tell the good news in my hood
youve done better than me at writing poems
now youve forgiven me, its now got me goin'

it me, i shouldnt be shy
its cuz i like you, THATS WHY
you are rite about us,
about how our friendship is about to fall apart

I dont want that to happen,
I dont want to loose you
your so important to me,
and thats so true

I hope that our friendship last forever
i know itll never end
cus i know your the realest
now my heart is mend

Love alwayz CHANEL

Friday, May 02, 2003

Fri, 02 May 2003 12:38:35 GMT

hi.. =) just came back home from the movies watching X-Men.. its cool!! right not im chatting to my ReyJey and Chanel.. Both convos are getting interesting.. now im chatting to mark also, and he's just told me a secret.. >.< oh deary me, how can i keep it.? im kinda excited but not, cos err. i dunno.. its complicated..

ANYWAIS, i need to pee.. haha.. i drank like sooo much orange juice and im too lazy to move my no ass of a butt!! o.O

have i ever told you how much i love to sing.? it gets me to think about the more sentimental things.. ay how corny. >.< hehe.. i dont get much time to just think to myself, its usually with ALOT of people, because i like to be surrounded and never be alone.. i have my reasons. that including being afraid of ghosts.. OI!! DONT LAUGH!! it just gives me time to think through and let out some stuff which i dont at all by singing.. i mean, im not at all good at it, but HEY, its my own free HAPPY therapy!! woo wee!! hehe.. well.. i think i'd better go.. talk to you later.. see ya!! God bless and take care always.. Love you..

-Leah

Saturday, April 26, 2003

Sat, 26 Apr 2003 10:29:23 GMT

hmm.. hiya.. hehe.. that last blog is funny.. geeez.. i was that angry.?? impossible! he had probably pissed me off bad!! *hmph!!! umm.. well it's my friend's birthday today! HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANA!!! i love you!! hope you have the best day and get as many birthday pressies.. ooops.. speaking of, i still have to get you something.. >_< hehe.. well, dont expect anything too big, cos im a cheap-0.. hehe.. well, enough about you. i'll see you at school ok^^..

i miss ReyJey soo much.. he's soo adorable.. >.< eek!!.. i have noone to bite anymore.. or to annoy. or to wake up.. o.O life is dull!! my next master plan is to kidnap ReyJey.. muhAHhaHAHa!! errm yes. i spent wednesday with him and he slept over that night and the night after, going home in the morning of friday.. we went to the Elite dance competition on thursday night.. it was ok.. we came back to my sister's and her fiance's place to sleep there.. we watched part of a french movie =\ and he played some games on x-box, while i fell asleep... hehe.. i woke him up early that morning which was soo hard!!.. ReyJey is a really deep sleep-er!! well yeah.. i miss him.. he's soo adorable to watch sleep.. >.< and everytime you try kiss him while he's sleeping, he just turns the other way, all curled up like a baby.. *awww.. he's soo NYuMee.. i just wanna eat him up! oh how delish!

hehe.. anywais, i better go.. nyt nyt.. love you reyjey.. and happy birthday ana.. =)

-Leah

Tuesday, April 22, 2003

Tue, 22 Apr 2003 13:37:32 GMT

GGGrrRr!!!
DAMMIT im pissed at someone in particular at the moment.. geeeez.. why does he have to be such a fvckin asshole!! might aswell think of the worse if there is nothing gonna happen.. i dont feel it anymore.. like i used to.. this is soo pathetic.. i dont know if this is just stages or whatso, BUT DAMNIT AARRGH!! ppl are just sooo insensitive sometimes!! i will blow up any time soon!! and, what boilled my blood even more, is that i HAVE NO RIGHT TO BE MAD GRR!! blah blah blah BLAH BLAH! bullshit that your ahhhh!! your just always full of shit.. you say this, but you mean another!!.. you ARE SOOOOOO DAMN FAKE, to me anyways!! and so am i for acting so wrongly in response to your BULLSHIT!! fvck you! but yet again.. i will remain my calm, kind, "idiotic" ways to cover up all YOUR DAMN WRONG!!
you suck as hell, yet i wont do shit about it!! you just make me cry, because im too scared to do anything, say anything at all.. i just feel soo frightened bleh bLAH BLAH BLAH!! but why.?!

ok.. that let off alot.. heh.. thanx..

Monday, April 21, 2003

Mon, 21 Apr 2003 07:14:06 GMT

hi.. havent done much today.. =\ im pretty bored.. just went shopping.. im soo full from all the chocolates i got for Easter.. i woke up with the worst throat.. i hate mornings!! i couldnt stop coughing damnit! i thought i was gonna dye!! o.O anywais, i watched stuart little 2.. he's soo adorable. hah i love him .. when i went shopping today, this guy was waving hi, i sooo didnt know who he was, but he looked familiar. not that kind of familiar when you know him but have forgotten, but the kind of familiar when you've only ever seen him.. it felt awkward, but i just waved back and smiled, he smiled back.. hehe, he was rather cute too.. >.< err.. yes. it was strange, quite a few ppl were waving and saying hi, yet i didnt know them. =\ rather frightening actually.. and they all had that familiar thing going on.. weird. well, i better go now.. just gonna entertain guests.. i first need my whip and my leather outfit.. hehe.. buhbai!

OH i almost forgot.. a HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY to carli and Joey!! ^_^ .. hope you two have many more birthdays to come! you both be a good girl and be cute always.. Jojie, right now your probably having the time of your life wherever you are.. just be safe and remember that leeloo loves you always.. hehe.. hmm..

-Leah

Friday, April 18, 2003

Fri, 18 Apr 2003 08:26:41 GMT

hi.. i just had dinner and im awfully full.. o.0 i woke up this morning feeling horrible.. i had a really bad flu.. i slept over my sister's and her fiance's place during the night, along with my younger sister.. we just rented movies and bought ALOT of NYuMee candy.. >.< unfortunately, ReyJey was unavailable.. *hmph! hehe.. we were watching till around 5 am.. early in the mornin today we bought breakfast at mcdonalds.. i wasnt really eager to eat at all coz i felt sick with a really bad headache.. i've been having this headache for a while now and it hurts like hell.. i've just been sleeping it off throughout the day.. doesnt seem to be working though.. keeps coming back.. i hate having a sore throat.. i ALWAYS get em.. next thing you know, i'd probably have them taken off.. =\ eeek.. im too attached to it.. its a.. a part of me! LoL nadUH! >.< anywais i better leave it at this.. buhbai. God Bless and take care..

btw, happy easter.. its Good Friday today.. say sorry to Jesus for your sins ok.? its what put him on the cross in the first place.. and collect as many easter eggs and then send em to me.. especially those darrel lea ones.. mmMmm.. hehe.. ok goodnight now.. Love lots.

-Leah

Wednesday, April 16, 2003

Wed, 16 Apr 2003 12:40:37 GMT

heya.. im soo cold right now.. and im listening to pretty yet sad songs.. to add, im sooo paranoid about something.. o.0 reyjey would know what about.. i just hope not.. not yet anywais.. i have a rather sore throat aswell.. and a sore toe.. what a day!.. -.-;; the best thing that happened for the week is me spending time with pogi ReyJey.. we went out yesterday and he slept over my place till later today.. i miss him soo much ... well gtg.. take care, God Bless, Love lots.. hehe.. this entry has too many sad smilies.. soo... to even it out " "

-Leah

Saturday, April 12, 2003

Sat, 12 Apr 2003 12:49:48 GMT

heya.. its mine and ReyJey's 6 month today^^.. i miss him sooo much.. ReyJey i love you.. [this is the part when pretty soppy love songs come in...] hehe..

Rey,
hehe.. heya baby.. because hmm... your my focus for the day, and every other day when it comes to mind, i just wanna write this itty bitty dedication for you^^.. well.. err.. how do i begin.? hmm [the soppy love songs should still be going] hehe.. ReyJey, you know i love you right? riGHT? RIGHT!? hehe.. i love you very many Rey baby..^^ hehe.. well, i just wanna remind you that i'm always here for you whenever you need me.. if you need to talk, bitch about someone, play Mystic Heroes, or do the cricket w00ty [hihihi >.<], im only a bus and train away.. lol, that seems long.. i was gonna say 'a dial away', but that doesnt exactly imply with everything.. =\ ok ok.. losing track here.. hmm.. ReyJey, im sorry if i get moody sometimes and when i take it out on you.. i dont mean it really.. its THE DAMN MONTH CYCLE!! hehe.. >.< j00king.. you mean everything to me Rey.. as soon as you stepped in my life you've made me feel soo much more loved, so much more happy, so much more alive.. you've been there always to listen right from the beginning! you've always been there for support and encouragement, you've always been there to make me smile and laugh , and you've heroicly survived my daily rants and sobs, and you've been the best comfort through all that, even when im too stubborn to explain whats wrong.. you know exactly what to say, when to say it, and how.. you're definitely 'magical'.. hehe.. your the sweetest, most charming, entertaining, NYuMee-est, most adorable guy i've ever met.. every little bit about you is just sooo irresistable.. >.< your so easy to love, and everyday, your charm makes me fall in love with you over and over again, every day a little more than before.. although it might sound corny, i thank God everynight, that he has given you to me.. eeek.. it IS corny.. >.< oh wells.. God is Good..

anyways, i better leave this as it is.. ^^.. I love you ReyJey.. Take care always and God Bless..

-yours Leah.